Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Going to vom

I'm leaving for my appointment with the genetic counselor in about five minutes, and I feel like I'm going to vom. About an hour ago, in a misguided attempt to literally coat the butterflies in my stomach with delicious, creamy hummus, I ate a bag of carrots and the aforementioned hummus and now I am so nervous that I'm feeling ill. I don't know why I'm so anxious. Today is a good day. Today is the day I've been waiting for for months. Today is the day I take control and get tested. I won't know the results for weeks. So why am I so nervous? Knowing your life will change is so nerve-wracking...

1 comment:

  1. Hi, you just followed me on twitter - fellow BRCA2+ - and I'm catching up on your story so far. I got my blood drawn June 1st and my result on the 15th.

    I felt like this. Much more anxious than I thought. Nervy nervy nervy. Sitting around thinking how this day was going to drastically affect the course of my life. I'd known since October I had a 50/50 shot, so what was that all about? Anyway I didn't vom nor did I cry (except a little when I realized that my little baby gorgeous chunk of a daughter now has a 50/50 shot too).